Being Loved In Spite of Ourselves

When I think of You Lord, when I put You first, when I fix my eyes on all that You are and all that You have blessed me with, how can I possibly complain, have any troubles or ever feel insignificant?!
 
It is in my attitude.  It is in my choices.  It is in what I want to control.  Oh Lord, my desire for 

‘self’ is so ferocious at times.  I get caught in my head.  I get trapped in my thoughts.  My mind becomes a battleground!  Yet it is all completely self-induced!  It is all about me!
 
And yet, oh so simply, like flicking a switch, it is easy to stop the raging! The answer IS You!  The answer has always been You!
 
Distractions are sent to defeat me.  When I allow the distraction to enter my mind, I give permission to the enemy to attempt to destroy.  Thank You Lord that You have been renewing me inside out, and that You who are in me IS stronger than he who tries to attack!  You came to save me and keep me secure!
 
As my faith deepens and my roots grow deeper with each day and indeed with each distraction, You meet me with grace.  You transform my mind and my heart so that I am not trapped in these webs and can escape.  You always provide a way out!  You ARE the way out!
 
Each day I practice, and each day I get better.  Like learning how to walk as a baby, it is taking steps each day WITH You.  Leaning not into what I know, but trusting and truly experiencing that You know what is best for me. 
 
You are not a selfish God.  You are loving, generous, gracious and kind.  You do not want me defeated, You want me blessed and free.  And I truly experience that more and more each day as I, the selfish one, release more of me to You.  Thank You Lord for loving me in spite of myself!  Thank You for renewing me and making me whole!